Get Well Soon

I wish I know what to say and how to act. I guess most of the time I am afraid. I do not want to know more because I do not want to know the truth. But alas, the truth came to light and I do not know how to react. I just died inside knowing what you're going through.

Everybody was expressing how worried they were and how it affected them. I try not to show any emotions because I know how you hate making others feel bad. I tried to make it as if you're ok and I can see you are reassuring me that you are ok by showing how active you are and how good you feel.

Though I don't say or show much to you, I hope you do know how important you are to me and how I pray that you get well soon. I know you've always been strong and there's no reason for you to falter at this crucial moment. All of us won't let you fight this battle on you own.

Get well soon.

Updates

It's been a while since my last post >.<" . Been quite busy with my Chinese New Year holiday and now without me realizing, it's Valentine's Day already!

So, CNY 2011 was a happy/sad holiday for me. Happy because I was at my hometown, get to gather with family and friends, get to have the best roasted lamb (gosh, I wish I could still have some of it) and of course happy because of all the ang paos ^_^.

The sad part is.. I don't know how the hell I managed to membulatkan diri in just 2 weeks! I only have myself to blame, wanting to stuff myself with all the food that I will never have here. I should follow the 14-day-weight loss-challenge. Sigh. But now I can't help myself, I crave for food more than I ever did. And the most surprising thing is that of all the food, I've been craving for KFC these past few days. KFC?? That is something I never thought of craving - EVER!

I guess this is the effect of non-stop eating for 2 weeks. It's midnight now and what I am thinking is FOOD! I am hopeless.. sigh...

can I eat you? >.<"

It Feels Like Home - Edwina Hayes

I was watching my Sister's Keeper a while ago and half way through the movie I heard a song that sounded familiar. It was a song by Chantal Kreviazuk - It Feels Like Home, but somehow it sounded different. I like the one in the movie better 'cause it sounded more real as compared to the mp3 that I have of that song by Kreviazuk.

Well anyways, here's the song and I love every bit of it including the lyrics.. This the the one that's on the movie sung by Edwina Hayes.

Lyrics:

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
It feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down along dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there is light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
It feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

Bruno Mars - Marry You

"How many times you want to listen to that song??"
"Again and again?"

LOL.

I love this song. Heard it first on Glee, but I prefer Bruno Mars singing it. It's a happy sing along song that I can go on singing the whole day. Hahaha..

I think I wanna marry you~

Lyrics:

It’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,
Come on girl.
Who cares if we’re trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it’s on girl.

Don’t say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we’ll go, go, go, go-go.
If you’re ready, like I’m ready.

Cause it’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

I’ll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
So whatcha wanna do?
Let’s just run girl.
If we wake up and you wanna break up that’s cool.
No, I won’t blame you;
It was fun girl.

Don’t say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we’ll go, go, go, go-go.
If you’re ready, like I’m ready.

Cause it’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby. x2

Cause it’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Maggots!

Of all the things in the world, maggots are one of those things that I could not stand the sight of! Give me a cockroach and I will pet it. Give me a lizard and I will play with it. Give me a maggot?? I will positively kill you!

UGH! Thanks to our new housemate, our rubbish bin is infested with maggots! We've told her not to throw wet waste and food waste into the bin but I guess when you are just too stupid, you're just too f-king stupid. Simple as that.

It makes me feel like i just wanna scoop the little eeky things and put it in her food or in her room. Come to think of it, maybe I just should put those little things on her clothes that she's just too lazy to take into her room. I don't know which part of 'take your clothes in the laundry room as soon as it dries' that she do not understand. Oh well, this might be an interesting thing to do as our amusement 'cause after throwing the maggots-infested-rubbish out from the house we do need some kind of amusement, eh?

Blue Cheese

'Could you finish up that cheese A.S.A.P? It's stinking up the whole house'

'It's not smelly at all - I don't smell anything'

Hahahaha! Yes, I'm crazy about blue cheese. I know how my previous post was about having a stinky housemate, but my blue cheese has better smell than she... >.< hee..

The first time I smelled the stuff, I honestly nearly fainted. I still remember clearly my mum was screaming at my brother for buying some kind of rotten cheese. But trying new stuff is what I was known for, so after trying the cheese for the first time, I swore I would never eat that awful stuff again! It wasn't until I saw my brother enjoying every bite of his cracker spread with blue cheese that I braved myself to try it again. It actually wasn't so bad, I ended up eating a few crackers with the cheese!

Recently, I was craving for this rotten-smell cheese again. I was having dinner with friends and when I saw blue cheese cubes on my friend's salad, I was once again hooked with it. I bought blue cheese the next day and had myself cracker with blue cheese as my tea time and supper >.<"

I know I'm not suppose to have cheese for supper, but I just can't get it off my head. I just have to have it, HAHA!

I guess in a few days I will regret for eating too much of this cheese when I weigh myself on the machine.. sigh.. Why must good things have to end somehow.. T__T