What Should I Celebrate?

There's a thing going on at the office, something to do with decorating your workstation with holiday celebration (any Global Holidays). Am thinking of doing St.Patricks's Day - little man in green suit with a pot of gold. That sounds like an ideal holiday for me - pot of golds, LOL. 


What is St. Patrick Day all about anyways? Is it getting a pot of gold from the little green suit man? Sounds creepy but cool at the same time. I did some reading and St. Patrick Day is actually a traditional day for spiritual renewal and offering prayers for missionaries worldwide. I would never have expected that with all the green parade going on. So for those lack of St. Patrick Day knowledge as I am, here are some info that I extracted from the net. 


 " Saint Patrick is the patron saint and national apostle of Ireland. St Patrick is credited with bringing christianity to Ireland. Most of what is known about him comes from his two works; the Confessio, a spiritual autobiography, and his Epistola, a denunciation of British mistreatment of Irish christians. Saint Patrick described himself as a "most humble-minded man, pouring forth a continuous paean of thanks to his Maker for having chosen him as the instrument whereby multitudes who had worshipped idols and unclean things had become the people of God." "


" Originally, the colour associated with Saint Patrick was blue. Over the years the colour green and its association with Saint Patrick's day grew. Green ribbons and shamrocks were worn in celebration of St Patrick's Day as early as the 17th century. He is said to have used the shamrock, a three-leaved plant, to explain the Holy Trinity to the pagan Irish, and the wearing and display of shamrocks and shamrock-inspired designs have become a ubiquitous feature of the day. In the 1798 rebellion, in hopes of making a political statement, Irish soldiers wore full green uniforms on 17 March in hopes of catching public attention. The phrase "the wearing of the green", meaning to wear a shamrock on one's clothing, derives from a song of the same name."

" Saint Patrick's Day has come to be associated with everything Irish: anything green and gold, shamrocks and luck. Most importantly, to those who celebrate its intended meaning, St. Patrick's Day is a traditional day for spiritual renewal and offering prayers for missionaries worldwide. 

" So, why is it celebrated on March 17th? One theory is that that is the day that St. Patrick died. Since the holiday began in Ireland, it is believed that as the Irish spread out around the world, they took with them their history and celebrations. The biggest observance of all is, of course, in Ireland. With the exception of restaurants and pubs, almost all businesses close on March 17th. Being a religious holiday as well, many Irish attend mass, where March 17th is the traditional day for offering prayers for missionaries worldwide before the serious celebrating begins."

So that's more or less about the St.Patrick Day. Unfortunately, while typing this it was decided that my cluster is to decorate American Holidays. *sigh* Gotta think of another holiday now... (Halloween? Thanksgiving? Independence Day?)

Heard this song for the first time. I think it's a 2-year-old song. But as usual, I like the lyrics the most.



I'm running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won't be ok and I won't pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand
Please take my hand
Please take my hand

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

It's so simple and you know it is
You know it is, yeah
We can't be to and fro like this
All our lives
You're the only way to me
The path is clear
What do I have to say to you
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt
This was all I wanted, all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

Rants of the day

I've so many things to write but no idea where to start. Been months since my last update. So presently, am kinda pissed off and stressed with work. Work load is okay but the person am dealing with makes me feel like whacking him hard in the head.

*Sigh* When will I finally get to get out from this place. Been hoping for a new, more meaningful job. Been stuck here far too long than what I have planned.

Work aside, today was a total mood-let-down. I'm so hating Digi now. They have such unprofessional customer service and their online store is a shame! How the hell don't they know where/what is the status of the item when the transaction has been successful?? 3 days I've been calling them and they could not even update on the status. Their fucking system is useless.

I feel like screaming my head off to them. They can't even give me other options, and keep saying sorry and no you can't do that, no we can't do this - WTF man, at least give me some options that is logical and acceptable.

You're so gonna get it from me if you fail to update me asap.

'Tis The Season to be Jolly (? is it)

The season of giving is here again! 'Tis the season to be jolly, la la la la la~

5 days to go till Christmas. I am so not in the jolly-Christmas-season-mode, I am more to stay-home-sit-on-couch-all-weekend-mode. Tho I enjoy the company of good friends, to laugh heartily with stomach filled with good food, this year I just want a quiet peaceful Christmas.

I don't even have a wish-list as I previously had..sigh.

Not so sure what's with the change of Christmas mood.. getting older perhaps (?)
But what ever it may be, I'd still be happy receive gifts from those who are touched in this season of giving, ehehe.

So here goes, my wish for all of you.. Have a Special Christmas Where Ever You May Be.

A Belated Birthday

I'm sorry I missed your Birthday.

I planned to visit and be there on you first birthday apart from us. I'm sorry I've been a bit busy lately and did not have the time to visit you.

Just in case you were wondering - I haven't forgotten you. None of us have. You're still fresh in our minds and your memory never left us.

Deep down it is as if you're still here and that you'll pop-out any minute and we'll have another dinner together and you'd be telling your stories and your updates as you always did. I miss you and I'll always treasure the simple times that we had which are special to me.

I Miss You

I miss you.

I miss having the reassurance that if anything might happen to me, you're here and I can depend on you.

I miss visiting you at your restaurant. I miss the nights together where tell your stories with a glass of wine and some delicious tapas on the table. I miss knowing that if I happen to be near your place, there was a chance that I would see you working and talking to your customers.

Now, I can't even pass by your place without shedding a tear.

I miss you.

I miss that on every holiday occasions I never fail to receive a text from you giving your best wishes although it wasn't an event that we celebrated, but still, you send everyone you best wishes.

I miss you.

Thank YOU

I know I have been such a pain these past few months. I became less the person I was. I'm easily frustrated and agitated. I didn't mean to be difficult. I'm sorry for the things I put you through and the situations that you have to face unwillingly.

I appreciate the things that you coped up with me and not a second did I took you for granted. I am lucky to have someone who is patient with my selfish and tormenting ways these past few months.

I know I need to get out from this rut I'm in. I need to pull myself together and try to look ahead for once. I know I need to do this and I hope you'll be here with me through it all.

Do know that I am thankful for everything that you've done.

Why Can't I Forget..

There are things in life that I wish not to remember. There are those I wish I've never known.

People and even songs tell us that time will heal, but it seems to me that pain is timeless. It stays hidden inside and when it seeps through a small opening, that is when your whole world crumbled once again. The pain never goes away. It stays hibernated only to surface again and strike you where it hurts.

There are things I wish to forget and people I wish I hadn't known...

Death

Death - it is something that has always intrigued me.

What is it about? Is it true what they say about death? When you've been good you go up to heaven but when you've been bad you'll be thrown down to hell. How do we know that is true? There are those who also say that when you die, you feel nothing. You're just dead. Under the ground. Feels nothing and knows nothing.

But there are those who proclaimed that they have seen heaven and hell. They were there in heaven with Jesus and was asked to record everything. How would one know that it is real? I too can just say that one day I was invited by Jesus to go to heaven and He showed me everything and how people can be saved. I'd make myself big bucks out of that.

Does anyone really know how it is? What happen to us when we die?

Is it true that they say you'll see bright light, you'll see all you past memories before you and you go into the bright tunnel where everyone is calling you. Those are some of the experiences that those who were close to death had.

People said without death, you won't appreciate life. I guess I'm just one of a kind for disagreeing with that.

Sigh.

If I were to die, I just hope that it's just a deep sleep - knowing and feeling nothing. I'm used to feeling so, so it won't be that hard on me.

I'm Just Stupid

I know I am not always right. I know that the way I think isn't a thorough, realistic and mature way. I know I ain't got all the answers right. I know emotions play a part in my decision making.

It has always been this way. I know what I want. But I'm not sure it's what you want. I can always decide according to how and what I want. But I don't. For me I like to discuss and reach an understanding. But I guess it never goes that way. Somewhere in the middle everything turns sour, hell broke loose and damaged has been done.

I'm stupid at reading signs and gestures. I see things as they are. I'm not an abstract person that can see the form of an angel from a piece of paper with what I'm sure are splashes of paint. I see a line as a line, nothing more and nothing less. When I don't get a clear answer I get frustrated because I don't know what is happening. It's my fault for being a stupid asshole.

I am not a great person to be with and I make the silliest argument from the silliest matter. I get angry at nothing and I get depressed out of nothing. I wouldn't want to be with someone like me. I don't know why you would. I'm nothing but a pain in the ass with a fucked up life.

I'm just a fake.

How can I say that I love you while I hate and despise myself the most? Doesn't the saying goes 'you must love yourself before loving others'? How can I make another person happy when I'm not even happy with myself? I just can't be the person that I want to be. In my head I want to be the greatest for you. But in reality I can't even get myself to do what I need to do to make this work.

I wish there's a way that I could turn back time. To a time that I first fell for you. I have hurt you so much that I feel it is better off if that night that I fell for you never happened. I'm sure you would've been happier and lived a better life.

I'm okay with it

So many things to write, so little time.. sigh..

What a day I just had. Sometimes I wish I'm deaf. I've decided. I'm making the ultimate sacrifice.

I know I'm the only reason stopping this thing from happening. I won't be the reason anymore. I'll help what I can for I know it is the right thing for everyone.

I've prayed, I've pleaded and I've begged. But it seems it is not my call. For once I won't let it be all about me. I can see it's a good thing - even if I need to be out of the picture.

I wish all the good things to be with you and hope you'll have everything you've wished for.

A Surprise Package

Just got back from lunch with a friend that will be having her viva tomorrow. I'm happy for her but at the same time I feel sad for myself. Sigh.

Anyways, best of luck to her tomorrow. Anyways, unlike any other days, today we went to check our mail box expecting to receive a notice from poslaju (due to their laziness to go up to our unit). There was no notice but instead there was a bulky envelope. It must be for one of my housemates I thought to myself (yes it's sad, I don't get any mails except for the monthly magazine by Cosway). Anyways, I looked at it carefully and saw my name printed out on the envelope.

Since I wasn't expecting any mails, it was nice to get something other than the monthly magazine. It was a rather familiar envelope that I ever saw during my college years. It's the RBC Ministries books. It was kinda weird cause I never did filled any forms for the subscription, but my name was there with the correct mailing address.

It's a surprise package indeed. Since I've no idea where it came from. Not sure will be reading it tho, am not really a big fan of religious books. My friend said "If God is telling me something, I will flip to a page that can help me with what I'm dealing now." She flipped and land on to a page that has nothing to do with what she's dealing with. LOL. Maybe I should do that too, just to see if it works on me.

Eating Frenzy 1

I'm out on a frenzy!! - an eating frenzy that is.

Destination 1: el meson, Bangsar.

This was my first time dining in this restaurant. The only Spanish restaurant I've ever been to in Bangsar was the La Bodega. So this was my second Spanish restaurant. But I can assure you that Spanish dishes are just heavenly! The flavours in their food are alive, you can feel them dancing on your taste buds! Well, that's how I feel it.

La Bodega is more of a tapas n wine (well, that's why it's called tapas y vinos) restaurant. Good for hanging out with friends and for snacks if you don't want anything heavy or if you enjoy eating lots of different kind of food at one time.

el meson is more of a main dish - dining kinda place. They do serve tapas too but the main dishes are more tempting. Especially when there's pork involved. I've always been dying to try the roast sucking pig. Well now I can check that off from my list of things to do/eat.

Anyways, I really like the ambiance in the restaurant. I kinda felt like time stood still in there, where you can enjoy your meal, have some good laughs with friends and it never felt like it's time to go. We had to force ourselves to call for the bills.

The food was superb. The roast sucking pig didn't disappoint me. Tho in the picture it kinda look nasty and sad at some point, but I would definitely have it again. I love everything about it. The Paella Valenciana was kinda a lot but I just can't help myself from having more.

Desserts were great, especially the Chocolate Molten Lava. Our hands were scooping it non-stop. Affogato was delightful too, I like the coffee taste and the sprinkled nuts on it.

All in all, it was a delightful dinner we had at el meson. For a great dinner for the family or friends, I would say el meson is the place. But if you wanna hangout, have some drinks and have a good time with friends, La Bodega is the place to be. Both places serve superb Spanish cuisines.

Herb garden in the making

I've been thinking of doing some projects around the house. The thing that is on top of my list at the moment is gardening. Yes, gardening. Never in my life (well maybe once, for my assignment but on my own free will I never) did I have the desire to plant anything. I did try to plant some unknown seeds when I was little but I gave up when it never sprouted.

I'm actually excited to start this project, I'm thinking of having a herb garden (I suppose a herb 'pot' would be a more appropriate word since there's no way I can plant a herb garden in my apartment). Anyways, I was suppose to get me some gardening stuffs today but didn't managed to. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get them and start getting my hands 'dirt'y.

Flying High in the Sky

Life is indeed a funny thing. Sometimes you think you've got it all figured out, you've got things under control. But one sunny day while you're whistling your favourite tune, 'smack!' - a slap of reality hits you.

Reality - what is it actually? What does it has to do with life? Why do we need to face reality to really live? A friend always told me how unrealistic I am, how I live in a world that I've created and how I do not see the realism of things around me.

Yes, I'm indeed a daydreamer. A daydream believer if I might add. Sometimes, it's hard to be happy without a little bit of help from the clouds above the head. It makes you hope for something and see the better version of things.

But I guess one cannot have enough dreams to permanently be flying sky high. Like it or not, the feet eventually will touch the ground and there you'll feel the utmost pain striking slap on the face followed by the sound 'Riiiiing!! Wait for it.. ah, here comes the part that you've never liked - r.e.a.l.i.t.y.'

I've gone through so far a bunch of realities that I did not wish to face - but I did eventually. It was always a slow process for me, but later (not sooner) I'll get around it. But unlike these petty realities that I've gone through, I am aware that I am yet again trying hard not to face the realism of the matter that I am going through now.

I am not ready to walk on solid grounds. I am not ready to let go. I know I'll once again be hit by that dreadful slap - I'll take it twice if I have to, but please don't rush me out of this one. I will eventually be out of this but at the moment do bear with me - flying high in the skies..

Your Heart I Cherish Like The Sunset.

never told you I loved you - I've always did.

I never told you I cared - I still do.

I never told you how proud I was of you - I still am.

I never told you all these but I pray that you've known it all along. I will never forget all the memories I had with you, you're always gonna be my dear big brother.

I love you.

Today’s Deal : 50% off RM10 Cash Voucher at My HoneyMoon Dessert

50% off RM10 Cash Voucher at My HoneyMoon Dessert!

This deal is really tempting, especially on a hot day like today!

You can choose from an incredible selection of the traditional hot, cold and chilled delights ranging from sweet ball, soy bean curd and sago to fruit grass jelly, icy swallow and chestnut soup; all of which look good, and taste great! The ever popular pancakes, mango cream, snow ice and cold summer drink are just some of the 250 choices you can find on My Honeymoon’s menu.

Durian Pancake - this I gotta try~

Anne of Green Gables

This is one heck of a classic movie. I must say, the first time I watched this movie was when I was little. It was kinda a have-to-watch-movie for me 'cause my siblings who were much older than me were watching it and since we had only one TV set at that time, I just joined them and in the end I snoozed off. The movie was too darn long!

When the 2nd sequel came out not long after, they were excited to watch it and again, it was another have-to-watch-movie for me.

Anyways, few years ago I think there was a rerun of it and I did try to watch it since I'm all grown up that time, but alas, halfway through the movie I fell asleep >.<" pathetic 'ol me.

But few days ago, I stumbled upon all 3 parts of the movie somewhere in my piles of junks and since I was bored that day I decided to finally watch it all. I was laughing my heart out throughout the entire movie! It took me the whole day to finish the Anne of Green Gables movies marathon. I just love the movie! I would definitely watch it again.

Tho it took me years after its release for me to appreciate the movie, I'm just glad that I finally get to watch it all without falling asleep XD

A bit of summary

Anne of Green Gables is a bestselling novel by Canadian author Lucy Maud Montgomery published in 1908. The character Anne Shirley is an imaginative, red-headed orphan who comes to live with Matthew and Marilla Cuthbert an unmarried siblings.

The Cuthbert who lives together at Green Gables, a farm in Avonlea on Prince Edward Island in Canada, decide to adopt a boy from an orphan asylum in Nova Scotia as a helper on their farm. Through a series of mishaps, the person who ends up under their roof is a precocious girl of thirteen named Anne Shirley. She is something of a chatterbox, which initially drives the prim, duty-driven Marilla to distraction, although shy Matthew falls for her immediately.

You just hafta watch it and you'll fall in love with the movie!

Paul McDonald for American Idol!

The American Idol fever is back once again! I'm sure most of you already have your favourite pick for this season, eh?

My favourite would definitely be Paul McDonald. I just love the way he sings right from the very beginning. He has got this distinctive way of singing and very fun to watch too. It's like he's not even trying yet he sings wonderfully.

I Youtube-d him and I found a few of his works with his band and I just fell more in love with his voice. My favourite from him would be during Vegas week where he sang Black Bird by The Beatles with Kendra Chantelle. They both sang it beautifully ~.~ But the song that's stuck in my head the most is Maggie May by Rod Steward. I just love his corkiness!

Hope he'll be the next Idol!

A song by his band The Grand Magnolias - American Dreams

Get Well Soon

I wish I know what to say and how to act. I guess most of the time I am afraid. I do not want to know more because I do not want to know the truth. But alas, the truth came to light and I do not know how to react. I just died inside knowing what you're going through.

Everybody was expressing how worried they were and how it affected them. I try not to show any emotions because I know how you hate making others feel bad. I tried to make it as if you're ok and I can see you are reassuring me that you are ok by showing how active you are and how good you feel.

Though I don't say or show much to you, I hope you do know how important you are to me and how I pray that you get well soon. I know you've always been strong and there's no reason for you to falter at this crucial moment. All of us won't let you fight this battle on you own.

Get well soon.