Get Well Soon

I wish I know what to say and how to act. I guess most of the time I am afraid. I do not want to know more because I do not want to know the truth. But alas, the truth came to light and I do not know how to react. I just died inside knowing what you're going through.

Everybody was expressing how worried they were and how it affected them. I try not to show any emotions because I know how you hate making others feel bad. I tried to make it as if you're ok and I can see you are reassuring me that you are ok by showing how active you are and how good you feel.

Though I don't say or show much to you, I hope you do know how important you are to me and how I pray that you get well soon. I know you've always been strong and there's no reason for you to falter at this crucial moment. All of us won't let you fight this battle on you own.

Get well soon.

Updates

It's been a while since my last post >.<" . Been quite busy with my Chinese New Year holiday and now without me realizing, it's Valentine's Day already!

So, CNY 2011 was a happy/sad holiday for me. Happy because I was at my hometown, get to gather with family and friends, get to have the best roasted lamb (gosh, I wish I could still have some of it) and of course happy because of all the ang paos ^_^.

The sad part is.. I don't know how the hell I managed to membulatkan diri in just 2 weeks! I only have myself to blame, wanting to stuff myself with all the food that I will never have here. I should follow the 14-day-weight loss-challenge. Sigh. But now I can't help myself, I crave for food more than I ever did. And the most surprising thing is that of all the food, I've been craving for KFC these past few days. KFC?? That is something I never thought of craving - EVER!

I guess this is the effect of non-stop eating for 2 weeks. It's midnight now and what I am thinking is FOOD! I am hopeless.. sigh...

can I eat you? >.<"