I'm okay with it

So many things to write, so little time.. sigh..

What a day I just had. Sometimes I wish I'm deaf. I've decided. I'm making the ultimate sacrifice.

I know I'm the only reason stopping this thing from happening. I won't be the reason anymore. I'll help what I can for I know it is the right thing for everyone.

I've prayed, I've pleaded and I've begged. But it seems it is not my call. For once I won't let it be all about me. I can see it's a good thing - even if I need to be out of the picture.

I wish all the good things to be with you and hope you'll have everything you've wished for.

A Surprise Package

Just got back from lunch with a friend that will be having her viva tomorrow. I'm happy for her but at the same time I feel sad for myself. Sigh.

Anyways, best of luck to her tomorrow. Anyways, unlike any other days, today we went to check our mail box expecting to receive a notice from poslaju (due to their laziness to go up to our unit). There was no notice but instead there was a bulky envelope. It must be for one of my housemates I thought to myself (yes it's sad, I don't get any mails except for the monthly magazine by Cosway). Anyways, I looked at it carefully and saw my name printed out on the envelope.

Since I wasn't expecting any mails, it was nice to get something other than the monthly magazine. It was a rather familiar envelope that I ever saw during my college years. It's the RBC Ministries books. It was kinda weird cause I never did filled any forms for the subscription, but my name was there with the correct mailing address.

It's a surprise package indeed. Since I've no idea where it came from. Not sure will be reading it tho, am not really a big fan of religious books. My friend said "If God is telling me something, I will flip to a page that can help me with what I'm dealing now." She flipped and land on to a page that has nothing to do with what she's dealing with. LOL. Maybe I should do that too, just to see if it works on me.

Eating Frenzy 1

I'm out on a frenzy!! - an eating frenzy that is.

Destination 1: el meson, Bangsar.

This was my first time dining in this restaurant. The only Spanish restaurant I've ever been to in Bangsar was the La Bodega. So this was my second Spanish restaurant. But I can assure you that Spanish dishes are just heavenly! The flavours in their food are alive, you can feel them dancing on your taste buds! Well, that's how I feel it.

La Bodega is more of a tapas n wine (well, that's why it's called tapas y vinos) restaurant. Good for hanging out with friends and for snacks if you don't want anything heavy or if you enjoy eating lots of different kind of food at one time.

el meson is more of a main dish - dining kinda place. They do serve tapas too but the main dishes are more tempting. Especially when there's pork involved. I've always been dying to try the roast sucking pig. Well now I can check that off from my list of things to do/eat.

Anyways, I really like the ambiance in the restaurant. I kinda felt like time stood still in there, where you can enjoy your meal, have some good laughs with friends and it never felt like it's time to go. We had to force ourselves to call for the bills.

The food was superb. The roast sucking pig didn't disappoint me. Tho in the picture it kinda look nasty and sad at some point, but I would definitely have it again. I love everything about it. The Paella Valenciana was kinda a lot but I just can't help myself from having more.

Desserts were great, especially the Chocolate Molten Lava. Our hands were scooping it non-stop. Affogato was delightful too, I like the coffee taste and the sprinkled nuts on it.

All in all, it was a delightful dinner we had at el meson. For a great dinner for the family or friends, I would say el meson is the place. But if you wanna hangout, have some drinks and have a good time with friends, La Bodega is the place to be. Both places serve superb Spanish cuisines.

Herb garden in the making

I've been thinking of doing some projects around the house. The thing that is on top of my list at the moment is gardening. Yes, gardening. Never in my life (well maybe once, for my assignment but on my own free will I never) did I have the desire to plant anything. I did try to plant some unknown seeds when I was little but I gave up when it never sprouted.

I'm actually excited to start this project, I'm thinking of having a herb garden (I suppose a herb 'pot' would be a more appropriate word since there's no way I can plant a herb garden in my apartment). Anyways, I was suppose to get me some gardening stuffs today but didn't managed to. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get them and start getting my hands 'dirt'y.

Flying High in the Sky

Life is indeed a funny thing. Sometimes you think you've got it all figured out, you've got things under control. But one sunny day while you're whistling your favourite tune, 'smack!' - a slap of reality hits you.

Reality - what is it actually? What does it has to do with life? Why do we need to face reality to really live? A friend always told me how unrealistic I am, how I live in a world that I've created and how I do not see the realism of things around me.

Yes, I'm indeed a daydreamer. A daydream believer if I might add. Sometimes, it's hard to be happy without a little bit of help from the clouds above the head. It makes you hope for something and see the better version of things.

But I guess one cannot have enough dreams to permanently be flying sky high. Like it or not, the feet eventually will touch the ground and there you'll feel the utmost pain striking slap on the face followed by the sound 'Riiiiing!! Wait for it.. ah, here comes the part that you've never liked - r.e.a.l.i.t.y.'

I've gone through so far a bunch of realities that I did not wish to face - but I did eventually. It was always a slow process for me, but later (not sooner) I'll get around it. But unlike these petty realities that I've gone through, I am aware that I am yet again trying hard not to face the realism of the matter that I am going through now.

I am not ready to walk on solid grounds. I am not ready to let go. I know I'll once again be hit by that dreadful slap - I'll take it twice if I have to, but please don't rush me out of this one. I will eventually be out of this but at the moment do bear with me - flying high in the skies..

Your Heart I Cherish Like The Sunset.

never told you I loved you - I've always did.

I never told you I cared - I still do.

I never told you how proud I was of you - I still am.

I never told you all these but I pray that you've known it all along. I will never forget all the memories I had with you, you're always gonna be my dear big brother.

I love you.