*sigh*
It's been hard for me these few days, weeks, months, I don't know.. I've lost count since when I felt so weak and helpless. Damn, I feel SO OLD! I feel like I've aged for over 50 years. *sigh*
Yes, another sigh to life. A friend told me that the more I sighed, the older I'll become. And what was my reply? SIiiiGH~
There was a point in my life where it was as if time stopped and even though how hard I tried to reason with things, I did not see the point, the purpose to anything.
Things I once believed in became the things I doubt the most. Things I've always hoped for became nothing more than a deserted desire. Things that were once the priority in my life became things that are now insignificant.
It feels as if I am living in an empty body. A soulless body one may call it. Einstein once said "He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed". But... my eyes are opened..and yet I no longer pause to wonder nor do I rapt in awe.. Yes, you saw it coming - another sigh, *sighhhh*
Somewhere some time ago the rate of my vigorousness in life depleted with a negative velocity with a really sharp gradient. Ah~ I'm being 'physical' now, haha! Ermm, a laugh for a lame joke; I should shoot myself now for that. >.<" *sigh* I need a HOLIDAY!! I need to rejuvenate myself. I need to boost myself up again! I need to empty this over-burdened head of mine. I need Bali, I need Paris, I need California Gurls, -we're unforgettable; Daisy Dukes bikinis on top~ I need... I need money, moolah, the green stuff $$$ to go on holidays.. T_T
*SIGH*
As hard as I am trying to find a reason to look forward to in life, (well I guess I should lower the scale a bit to 'tomorrow') - I see a vast field of nothingness...
....
It's been hard for me these few days, weeks, months, I don't know.. I've lost count since when I felt so weak and helpless. Damn, I feel SO OLD! I feel like I've aged for over 50 years. *sigh*
Yes, another sigh to life. A friend told me that the more I sighed, the older I'll become. And what was my reply? SIiiiGH~
There was a point in my life where it was as if time stopped and even though how hard I tried to reason with things, I did not see the point, the purpose to anything.
Things I once believed in became the things I doubt the most. Things I've always hoped for became nothing more than a deserted desire. Things that were once the priority in my life became things that are now insignificant.
It feels as if I am living in an empty body. A soulless body one may call it. Einstein once said "He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed". But... my eyes are opened..and yet I no longer pause to wonder nor do I rapt in awe.. Yes, you saw it coming - another sigh, *sighhhh*
Somewhere some time ago the rate of my vigorousness in life depleted with a negative velocity with a really sharp gradient. Ah~ I'm being 'physical' now, haha! Ermm, a laugh for a lame joke; I should shoot myself now for that. >.<" *sigh* I need a HOLIDAY!! I need to rejuvenate myself. I need to boost myself up again! I need to empty this over-burdened head of mine. I need Bali, I need Paris, I need California Gurls, -we're unforgettable; Daisy Dukes bikinis on top~ I need... I need money, moolah, the green stuff $$$ to go on holidays.. T_T
*SIGH*
As hard as I am trying to find a reason to look forward to in life, (well I guess I should lower the scale a bit to 'tomorrow') - I see a vast field of nothingness...
....
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